Entries by Sheila Lindsay

Chapter 1

  “I am forgotten as a dead man out of mind: I am like a broken vessel.” -Psalm 31:12   “God, are you about done with me yet? I can’t take it anymore!” Sitting on the floor of my bedroom in my PJs in the late afternoon on a warm Saturday in June of 2020, […]

Chapter 2

  “And the Lord, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.” -Deuteronomy 31:8   Dating and marriage were failures to add to my ever-growing list of defeats. While deleting all of my dating accounts, I felt […]

Chapter 3

  “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” -Philippians 4:13   Drake, which did turn out to be his real name, asked me if he could call after a few texts. The first thing out of his mouth when I answered was, “You have an accent! I love it!” After spending May, […]

Chapter 4

“…the trying of your faith worketh patience.” -James 1:3   Drake told me about his incredible 29-year marriage to the woman of his dreams, Lindsay. Cancer had taken her life a few months before her 50th birthday. She had been an excellent baker and stayed home with their children. When they were older she worked […]

Chapter 5

  “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven” -Ecclesiastes 3:1   Noticing a picture of Drake’s wife, Lindsay, on his phone, I asked him how long it had been since she passed. [Insert sound of exploding bombshell here!] Unable to hide my shock, my jaw dropped […]

Chapter 6

  “Now concerning spiritual gifts, brethren, I would not have you ignorant… Now there are diversities of gifts but the same spirit.”  1 Corinthians 12:1,4 The morning after our first date, I got a call from Drake at 6:30 am. I didn’t expect to hear from him again at all, much less the very next […]

Chapter 7

  “…all children are alike unto me; wherefore, I love little children with a perfect love; and they are all alike and partakers of salvation.”  Moroni 8:17 Turning around after putting the dishes in the dishwasher, suddenly off to my left, I saw Lindsay. At first, it startled me because I had not felt her […]

Finding the Light

“Write a book”, they said! “It will be amazing”, they said! Well, what they didn’t tell me is that writing my book and sharing my complete story in all of it’s gory details would bring back my PTSD and make me go through a lot more counseling. But, in the end it helped me overcome […]